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30 December 2012 @ 06:13 pm
Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything.

Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like.
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 05:49 pm (UTC)
I'm so lost. I don't know how to do anything right anymore. My closest friendships are falling apart at the seams and my grades are going downhill and I feel like I'm going nowhere, like I was more mature and a better person when I was younger than I am now. Like I've grown backwards. Then again, everything was so much simpler during my childhood. Sometimes, I wish I could go back, and never have to grow up.
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 亀 → heartbreakingelanielyn on November 13th, 2010 06:24 pm (UTC)
I think I know who you are, but that really doesn't matter, right? You couldn't be more mature when you were younger. Being mature comes with experience, whether they're good or bad experiences. Sometimes there are rough times and everything feels like it's going to Hell, but then it passes and things are better and you can be happy and more mature. So just hang in there. You're better now than you were before and you'll turn to be even better with time, trust me. Things were easier when you were young, so it might seem you were more mature because things were easier to solve and you could do so without hurting so much, but it's not true, you're very mature, and you're just going through a difficult phase. That's what being a teenager is supposed to be.

I love you.
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 06:12 pm (UTC)
elanielyn: Voice | Doushite?!elanielyn on November 13th, 2010 06:19 pm (UTC)
Oh, go to Hell, this was supposed to be a serious post XD
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 06:31 pm (UTC)
You shouldn't make these posts if you aren't going to be unconditionally and honestly helpful. :/
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 08:36 pm (UTC)
You probably know who I am but...
I think you don't want to be my mutual friend anymore because I don't like Jin.
Actually, it's kind of sad how people suddenly stop talking to a person just because they don't like some johnny...
But oh well... I guess there's nothing I can do... I should just accept it...
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 仁 → effortlessly seductiveelanielyn on November 13th, 2010 08:38 pm (UTC)
Whoever you are, you couldn't be more wrong. Many people in my f-list don't like Jin, some of my best friends don't like Jin, and I would never think about dropping them. Fandom is a excuse to meet people and make friends, never a reason to drop them.
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 09:01 pm (UTC)
Oh. Then I'm glad to hear that. I just wondered if that was the case.
It's just that recently I got a few LJ friends defriending me just because I don't like Jin. Well, everybody is convinced that I'm a hater, but I don't care enough to be one. I don't hate him, I just don't like him, and when I seem like a hater it's just because some Jin stans can really piss me off. But of course I know not every Jin fan out there is like that....
Well, anyway, sorry to bother you then ^^
elanielynelanielyn on November 13th, 2010 09:07 pm (UTC)
One of my best friends just made a post saying how she loved KAT-TUN's new song and laughing her ass off at Jin's supposed fail in the States. I'm talking to her on msn, laughing and loving her all the same. I'm not as stupid as to turn my back on people just because we don't like someone who will never have a direct effect on our lives anyway.
ary666ary666 on November 13th, 2010 09:16 pm (UTC)
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 仁 → effortlessly seductiveelanielyn on November 13th, 2010 09:17 pm (UTC)
Chiiiiii, te quiero aunque detestes a Jin xD
ary666ary666 on November 13th, 2010 09:16 pm (UTC)
And it's not supposed, baby =)
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 仁 → being wildelanielyn on November 13th, 2010 09:17 pm (UTC)
Tú chitón xD
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 11:05 pm (UTC)
xDD Yeah I read ary6666's entry ^^ I need to comment more though, I'm kinda busy lately :(
Then Ok, perfect, it was just something that I thought might happen, but if that's the case, great! ^^ And I totally agree with you, after all, these boys are just famous people, we will never meet them so... who cares xD who cares enough to be all worked up for one famous guy? Nah, no need xD
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 仁 → it's not to late to loveelanielyn on November 13th, 2010 11:09 pm (UTC)
I think this might have just killed any anonymous you could have >_> Considering I have a short number of common friends with her on lj, and not many of them like JE as much as to bother considering one of the boys a reason not to be friends >_>
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 11:21 pm (UTC)
Hahhahaha it's ok I only commented anon because the meme said so xD
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 仁 → being wildelanielyn on November 13th, 2010 11:31 pm (UTC)
This is not even supposed to be a meme orz It's to help people who often are afraid of things they are feeling or going through and don't dare to talk about it openly.
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 11:45 pm (UTC)
Oops sorry, I thought it was a meme....
It's a nice gesture ^^ Maybe I'll steal it someday ^^
ary666ary666 on November 13th, 2010 11:13 pm (UTC)
Hey, wanna comments here!! =) xDDD

and even more if there are something regarding Jin's fail or anything else interesting/funny =)
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 11:26 pm (UTC)
Jajajaj no te preocupes que me da a mí que tendré que hacer otra entrada sobre Jin dentro de poco por mucho que no quiera! xD
Y ya me caerán lluvias de comentarios ya........ para maldecirme claro xD
ary666ary666 on November 13th, 2010 11:53 pm (UTC)
Yo te apoyo, tu tranquila =)
marga_psmarga_ps on November 14th, 2010 12:52 am (UTC)
ary666: Saito's bitchesary666 on November 14th, 2010 09:36 am (UTC)
Sabía que eras tú =)
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 09:04 pm (UTC)
To be, or not to be?
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 仁 → stand alone (stand above)elanielyn on November 13th, 2010 09:08 pm (UTC)
Depends on what you want to be.
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 11:20 pm (UTC)
I want to be a princess, to be treated like one. Not feeling afraid of being dejected, of people who only want to hurt me. I want to be strong.

But being strong sometimes means being alone, because the only thing that attracts people around you is the feeling that you're fragile and that you need to be protected. No good.
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 仁 → a man to see.elanielyn on November 13th, 2010 11:48 pm (UTC)
Being strong doesn't mean being alone. I find people who act weak and like they needed to be protected all the time annoying. Even if you're strong it's fine to have weak moments at times. And what's a princess? Someone who wibbles and cries and behaves like a helpless baby? You can be a princess and still be strong and fierce.
(Anonymous) on November 14th, 2010 09:42 am (UTC)
Sometimes it means exactly that. I call tell of, at least, about two or three of my supposed best friends (HA!!) that only speak to me when they know I'm sad or ill or something like that. They take for granted that I'm strong enough to not need them. Bullshit. And, of course, I have to be there always strong for them to cry and be helpless. Can't anymore.

A princess, sometimes, is a girl who feels loved, even though sometimes is more hypocrisy than real feelings, can't be harmed easily and CAN be, sometimes, weak enough for people to feel worry. I want to be strong and fierce, I want to be that kind of princess, but I don't know how can I control my life anymore. I feel hurt more often than not, things are one moment great and the other one utterly horrible.

It's difficult to be with those kind of circumstances, u know.
elanielyn: JE | 仁 → with a light of your ownelanielyn on November 14th, 2010 02:52 pm (UTC)
Everybody lives with their own kind of circumstances, right? Everybody hurts for one reason or another. Maybe because you're so set on controlling your life it's escaping your control. Just take a deep breath, stop for a moment and let things flow until they get to a point where you think you can control them.
(Anonymous) on November 13th, 2010 10:33 pm (UTC)
The things I used to live for are all slipping away from me. I don't know why I'm here sometimes, because I had all these wonderful things that made my life good but one by one, I'm either letting them go or they're just escaping me. I am not interested in my own life so often, I wouldn't find it strange to tell someone how often I think about ending it, because the thought doesn't bother me anymore. I know I wouldn't do it, so I just keep on thinking it. I have no idea what I want, how to get it, or what to do with what I already have.
I'm scared to keep on going sometimes, because things seem as though they can only get worse. More to love, more to lose, more decisions to make and regret.

As for joy, though, when I feel happy it's amazing. It's like there's light inside me trying to burst out, and I love that feeling.
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 仁 → it's not to late to loveelanielyn on November 13th, 2010 11:26 pm (UTC)
You can't keep living with the same things forever. You don't cling to your toys from you were a baby and you probably don't meet your friends from preschool anymore, right? You need to accept the changes. If good things go, other good things will come. I know sometimes it seems like there's nothing good, nothing left to live for, but it just takes time to happen.

I'm trying to understand how you feel about your life, but I'm sorry. I just can't. I can't think about ending a life, your own life, because life it's such a wonderful gift. It's not something you should take for granted, it's a gift you have been given. And your life is not just yours. You have friends, you have your family, you have so many people who love you.

It's difficult sometimes to know who you are or what you want or where you are going, but those are all phases. I'm just nineteen and you're probably older than me, or at least my same age, and I don't really have much experience in life, but I've been through some rough patches in my life already and I know the best thing is to move forward. If you're hurting now, what's the point on wanting to stay as you are? Good things will come if you move on, and turn stronger and fight for them. You won't regret all your decisions, you won't lose everything you love even if it happens sometimes. So cling onto that light inside you when you're happy, remember it when things are not going all that well and fight to feel it again.

I know you're strong. I know you can do it. I love you.
(Anonymous) on November 14th, 2010 08:20 am (UTC)
I hate being not able to sleep. It's hell; and no amount of 'just lay down and close your eyes' helps. It's hard to close my eyes and not think. I just want to rest, damn it.

you probably know who I am, yeah?
elanielyn: JE | 仁 → with a light of your ownelanielyn on November 14th, 2010 03:02 pm (UTC)
Believe me if I say there's so many people in my flist who seem to have problems to sleep

I don't really know what to tell you. If whatever you have in your mind is giving you problems to sleep, then maybe you should talk it our with someone. Maybe getting it all out with someone would help you get some sleep.
(Anonymous) on March 9th, 2011 01:08 am (UTC)
Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off without friends. They seem to add to my problems and increase my feeling of being a failure.
Why are they my friends if I have to hear from them that I'm not a good one?
And all the while I know I can't live without them and they are amazing, but I can't help but sometimes think this.
elanielyn: KAT-TUN | 赤亀 → what hurts the most (waselanielyn on March 11th, 2011 12:37 am (UTC)
I... really can relate to that. I guess confidence does suck at times... Because they're your friends and they're used to be around you and have the confidence to tell you things bluntly, I guess sometimes they don't measure their words or say things that can hurt you without pretending so. Sometimes our closest friends are blind to how sensitive we actually are.
Sometimes friends are more helpful than others, and maybe know you feel like they're just causing more troubles and that's not worth it. But you are calling them friends yourself, so they must have done something to be considered as such. Think about the times when you were sad and they cheered you up, or the times they listened to your problems or the times you laughed together and whether or not those moments would had been better without them.
In my opinion, no one is better off without friends, because everyone needs their love and support - a love and support family can't always provide, for some reaon or another - at some point.
(Anonymous) on May 22nd, 2012 06:43 pm (UTC)
meooow. i like you. can i live with you? :3
elanielynelanielyn on May 22nd, 2012 07:35 pm (UTC)
Maaaaaaaaybe. Are you house trained?
(Anonymous) on November 21st, 2012 08:58 am (UTC)
you don't know me and I don't know you but I read your fics so yeah, that's as far as we know each other.

I'm here to tell you what's been eating me up lately. I know sharing this won't make any of the issues be resolved but hey, I want to share and that is the reason why I'm doing this.

I have problems trusting people. Why? I don't even know. I was sent for boarding school ever since I was 12. And now I'm already an adult and I spend less time with my family more than ever now. I don't even let my parents touch me much because I am not comfortable with physical contact with anyone. Everyone I know knows this fact.

I dated a senior when I was 15. We had on-off relationship for about a year before she decided to cheat on me and later begged me back cos she said it was all her fault. I didn't forgive her thinking that once it's over, it's over.

The next year, I dated a junior. When I was 14, this junior said that she liked me a lot but I refused her the first time she approached me. It took me 3 years to be able to accept her and I expected it to be purely physical when I finally started a relationship with her. It lasted a year before I had to leave the school upon graduation. The girl I used to brush off because she was always clinging to me was the same girl who didn't pick up my calls after a few months I left the school.

I was so mad at her. We didn't even have a talk about breaking up yet she was acting like she didn't know me in the first place. Six months later, I decided to move on.

But life sure is a funny motherfucker. Both of my exes contacted me after a few years and one is still positively bisexual while the other girl talks to me about her probs with her new bf.

I have no interest in both of them at the moment but I feel so lonely at the same time. Now, I dont even bother to date anyone but I have this affection towards my best friend. I've known her since forever and I think she knows that I like her but I never want to take things any further. It's not like i like her out of sexual interest. To tell you the truth, I don't really enjoy all these mixed up feelings that I feel deep down.

Is there any hope for me to actually accept someone and love them unconditionally? I don't know. I won't hope for so much either.

elanielynelanielyn on December 9th, 2012 09:37 pm (UTC)
Well... I pretty much have the same doubts as you. It takes ages for me to trust people, and I never feel like I'm trusting them completely, like I love anyone.

But bad as I am giving advices, I guess what's important is that everyone's different. Yeah, people have hurt you, but that happens to everyone. There's no one in this world who hasn't been hurt by people they thought their friends, or betrayed by someone close to them.

But that doesn't have to happen every single time. It may take a while, but you'll eventually meet someone you'll be comfortable with, if you don't shut yourself away completely. Even if it takes long to get to that point with somewhere, in my opinion it's worth it, because you never know if they're going to betray you or not. You never know when you'll find the one person for you.